Me

So, I finally filed my taxes. Does anyone want to pat me on the back? lol Ok just kidding. But I think it would be a lot easier if I just lived with my parents still. This living on your own is hard to get used to. I have my boyfriend to help me when I'm short on money, but for the most part I like to be independent. I don't like asking for money. I like feeling accomplished it makes me feel like I'm doing something good with my life.
I am planning on taking a vacation here soon to relax and clear my head. I still don't know what I want to do as far as career wise. I'm good with people and I love making an impact on other peoples lives.
At work the other night I had a little two year old at one of my tables. After his dinner he handed his mother his drink and ran into my arms. I've never had the type of feeling he gave me. I felt complete joy and at that very moment was content with where I was. It made me think about me starting a family, but I don't want to jump into anything. At the point I am at right now I know I am not ready to start a family. I couldn't support a family, and I want to be able to give my kids things I grew up with and the things I didn't. Something makes me wonder in my mom had that same idea.
I love my family, and its been really hard on me to be away from them. But, in all honestly, I wouldn't have found Jeramy and I really don't see my life being without him right now. I never thought I would find someone that I can be me around and not worry about being singled out or teased because my personality can be a little off the wall. I love making people laugh even if I make myself look funny in the process. I wasn't voted class clown for nothin... lol. But in the end I have one question... Would I marry him? I ask myself this everyday, and even though I can't see myself without him. Can I picture him being here everyday for the rest of my life. Can I picture us growing old together. I don't know...